UPDATE
Wow. The things that change in 4 years. Reading my posts from 4 years ago I could feel my anxiety, my desires, my constant searching for something not there. I would love to go back and tell that girl to just CHILL. It will all fall into place. I had no clue. I was so worried about planning the rest of my life that I was just living on the cusp of nothing. I was stressed and waiting for something to just appear that changed everything. This is where God stepped in. I had no idea at the time that he was transforming my heart and mind. I developed a new courage. One month after my last blog post I started working in the ER, totally outside of my comfort zone. That job catapulted so many things. I have so many lifelong friendships, connections, knowledge, and memories from that job. Fast forward, a year and a half into this job working nights and loving it, I get THE phone call. My mother texted me and informed me that my adopted brother's biological mother had just had baby number 5...
